broken heart

So much happen.
So much for me to handle.
So much of everything.
Too much of tears rolled down.
What do i really wants from this ?
Am i that difficult to please or am i too difficult to be understand?

Let me tell you.
All i want is someone to take care and love with.
Yes, i dont wanna miss out any chance that makes me regret my whole life with.
The only one, Stanley that makes me regret till now.
) :
It has been a year.. A year of separation, a year of torments.
Hopefully i will feel better after 1 year.
A year passes so fast, so tiring, so upset.
A bad year for me. Goodbye 2008 ( :

So much happen this year, glad that i'm still at one piece.
lols.
I've just lost a friend, someone that i once wanna to cherish of.
Perhaps i'm too straightforward, things went out of the way.
But i just want him to realise that he's being used for.
He doesn't seems to mind so what more can i do?
Blame myself for loving the wrong person ( :
No regrets, at least i tried... once.
Being together with the one that will cherish me is so so hard?
third party? or am i? or not?
I can choose, i have choices.
If i can choose again, i wont want to walk this path...
it's too tiring for me to handle.
I'm just afraid, afraid of losing things.

下雨天了 怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴
期待让人越来越沉迷

谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉