in love

YAWN YAWN YAWN!
busy week !
Bad news and good news.

) : Rui's dad just passed away the day before yesterday.
Good news. im in love with my dearest pig !
ok bye.
good luck to my pig for his theory which is in process now.
yawn byebye

rainbow love

Yes i know i'm silly to blog here and there.
My comp doesn't seems to like me at all.
While my brothers are playing, everything seems fine.
Once i sit infront of it, after like 10 minutes.
It went off right after that ) : ) :

Computer hates me ) :
Psp die on me yesterday ) :
Songs in ipod kills me everyday ) :
Work full shifts this week ) :
another killer news ...
During Christmas, i'll be working 8 - 10 days straight without off days ) :

I found my Mr Seventeens. WAHAHAHAS!
I've my lovely Jennifer ( :
I'm happy, at least for now.
I wouldn't want to know about the future.
I just wanna cherish whatever i have & i meant it

I LOVE YOU PIG

quoted

night met my bitch go ’sweet frog porridge’ again.. yummy~ but we are too full to finish all.. lol.. anyway huiying, u know what i mean.. stand out of the picture and do what need to be done.. the further you drag, things get worst.. no matter what, Ban zhu ding hurt her le.. so why dunwan end it earlier, dun let her suffer that much.. =)
be strong my friend, cuz i’m here for you when it hurts in your heart. =)

this is from my most beloved friend ( :
thanks! I know you has been staying by my side all along without fail.
Without you, i might not even be able to pick myself up in this terrible impact 1 year.
I LOVE YOU OK?
I know you're looking lols...
haha i shall become les, so we can be together again.
btw i saw sam sam yesterday~ AWWWWW
i miss her ( :
that's all.
I dont really have any mood to blog anyway.
goodbye loves

broken heart

So much happen.
So much for me to handle.
So much of everything.
Too much of tears rolled down.
What do i really wants from this ?
Am i that difficult to please or am i too difficult to be understand?

Let me tell you.
All i want is someone to take care and love with.
Yes, i dont wanna miss out any chance that makes me regret my whole life with.
The only one, Stanley that makes me regret till now.
) :
It has been a year.. A year of separation, a year of torments.
Hopefully i will feel better after 1 year.
A year passes so fast, so tiring, so upset.
A bad year for me. Goodbye 2008 ( :

So much happen this year, glad that i'm still at one piece.
lols.
I've just lost a friend, someone that i once wanna to cherish of.
Perhaps i'm too straightforward, things went out of the way.
But i just want him to realise that he's being used for.
He doesn't seems to mind so what more can i do?
Blame myself for loving the wrong person ( :
No regrets, at least i tried... once.
Being together with the one that will cherish me is so so hard?
third party? or am i? or not?
I can choose, i have choices.
If i can choose again, i wont want to walk this path...
it's too tiring for me to handle.
I'm just afraid, afraid of losing things.

下雨天了 怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴
期待让人越来越沉迷

谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

steal!

Quoted from my Jennifer's blog...

i read my book lo.. Why men love bitches. And i know why… part of me is like the bitch that is stated in the book.. same as my candy~ she has alot more of the bitch personality than me.. lol.. thats why more men love her~ =P On the other hand, my the other friend, is just like the doormat stated in the book.. and yes~ her r/s end partly cuz of that.. a good book for my candy & me - so we can understand how to be a 100% bitch. huiying - cuz she can learn to be a bitch too~ perhaps a new r/s wont end when she know how to act like one.. =)
One thing i really think she should learn is be happy of what she have. confident and dun lowdown herself..

Huiying - Jennifer's friend.
Candy - which is me! LOLS
so read it. ._.
nice book arh bitch.
please get your backside and elbow well!
( :
I LOVE U

weeeeeeeeeee

Sleepy Sleepy Sleepy ) :
Yeaaaaaaa tomorrow is my off day!
Yes! I gonna sleep my day away since there isn't any programme.
blog later ( :

screeeeams

Met up with Jennifer after meeting up with Ban (:
Jennifer told me not to be too good...
So i must be a bad woman? LOLS!
push her away?
._.
& she mentioned that i'm a good bitch ._.
Is not suppose to be a compliment... ):
but at least i stand up for my own thinking and knows what i've actually doing...
ha ha ha
working in forum is craze craze crazy!
Everyday is like so happening.
Perhaps forum seems to be a better place to work with.

This weekend burnt!
No Off day... nvm
but Fullshift on both days.
killer!
) : ) : ) :
it shows and it means no night outing..
but i want a supper please?!?!
I miss my little bitch, Jennifer..
I miss my Ban (:
I miss that DX.
oh yah!
Congrats to Kiat !!! WEEEEEEE
he's like attached lols lols lols~
thats all now.
Byebye

I LOVE YOU

official

Yep! Been a long time since i back here for blogging.
Met up with Ban(: Kiat and xun recently more than anyone else.
Ban came over to fetch me at CCK when im there to do delivery for customer.
Then we headed our way to Dx place to pick him up.
so we still deciding whether wanna meet up with JS anot.
but no one agrees to it, so we go over to pick kiat up and headed to Bukit Merah without JS.
yes, without him!

It's not boycott him, just that when he's out with us.
he simply too busy to entertain us but he's free to entertain his sms-es.
so why not leave him alone at home to sms her lols!
Things get better?
Ban seems to start ignoring her, I dont know is it a good thing or not.
JS sms-ed ban ytd regarding about he still cannot let go of her.
but wants Ban to make her happy.
Since JS wants her to be happy, why not be with JS and let himself make her happy?
stupid.
He never bothers how Ban feel.. As a good friend.
nevermind.
oh yea, JS smsed me when im at batam.
something like " are you working today? "
" are you with ban?! "
wtf? is it she cannot find her own bf must ask you come and ask me if im with him?
dumb f woman.
she's dumb...
Ban went out very early on Saturday to camp for course.
she didnt know a single thing, so she stupidly* waiting for him at his block.
._.
stupid. obviously Ban is tired no time entertain her.
so ban just sleep his whole afternoon away then she just stay there and do nothing.
bo liao-ness LOL!
hao ba~

ytd met up with Ban for my dinner ( :
usual prata but not as nice.
nothing much already.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LOVEEEEEEES

thinking hard

What what what happen!
I feel like so shit at times now.
I no longer knows what i really want and what i really need.
Hate those feelings which i feels that no one will understand.

Moving away is a better choice?
its tiring for me to let things be this way.
if this thing keep dragging, all of us will be tired.
slowly i'm feeling a little tired over it.
But i can't say anything, if not things will be different.

Who can i really turn to now?
Shut uppppppppppp!
hate everything now, everything to me isnt nice anymore.
not even myself.
I find myself very horrible now. ) :
A short trip this weekend to run away from the problems that i'm having right now,
im way tooo tired.
how i wish i can go now.
) :
so tired and restless.

At times, i really confuse about the things i really wants.
Like..
who i really fond of?
is he just a crush ?
Or will he be the one for me?
or even is it me alone?
fucks. ) :
im unhappy.
I've already once lost someone.
someone....
I wanted to cherish everyone i can..
Even if its just a crush or infatuation.
I dont want to miss out anything and regret.
But well..
life don't always go the way i want it to be.
Sigh sigh sigh.
Things just go so so wrong.

I wanted Stanley back.
but is impossible anymore.
I wanted to cherish JS(:
but the time is wrong.
I wanted to give HW a chance.
but im afraid things starts to change.
I wanted to be this and that.
I'm just afraid... afraid things will go wrong.
I dont want start to lose things and people around me.
esp you.
i know u'll be reading but things wont go our way.
( :
I'll learn.. learn not to be dependent on you.
BIG SIGH AGAIN.
off now.
bye